I hope to provide background on a situation I can’t help but petition, where seemingly having the slightest hope, parties ostensibly capable of providing assistance and relief to me, to become involved in to my relief. The scenario has degraded the quality of my life enormously for many years, in spite of what certain people will surely affirm, to the contrary, in a remarkably thorough manner. I will not repeat all of what I have written previously, but sum up some key-points related to the injuries incurred by my person due to the activities of others, hopefully clarifying where necessary, and then, I will conclude by adding some further information.

There has, it  seems, been a tremendous “ripple effect” stemming from, what I choose to focus upon, the irrational, if highly ingrained, denial that I am feeling the effects I feel which have indicated I would benefit from the treatment for Wilson’s Disease, and had a condition best described as WD. Along with that, came the affirmations in varying degrees from specific parties possessing, ostensibly, varying degrees of expertise which would theoretically correspond with the subject at hand, that I harbored a delusion. Some physicians have said they don’t think I have Wilson’s, some have affirmed that I do not have it, including while under oath (Morris Goldman of the Stone Institute at Northwestern), and some have stated that it’s ‘unlikely’ that I have WD (John Hinck at New Hampshire Hospital who also, if I recall correctly, affirmed I did have a delusion).

I have lamented that these are the experts in the field, and that psychiatrists have spoken, often, while consulting dated literature, that I couldn’t have WD because all people who have WD, as inherited, are killed by the disease by the age of 30. Thus, showing my predicament would have been still worse, some 30-40 years ago, and I would have had still less hope. There would be still less hope for anyone thinking it made sense to help me, as well, of course. I argue such problems persist in practice, and seemingly, in the literature as well, the latter which sane and responsible, even-the-slightest-bit-respectful, and professional behavior would, it seems, abate the effects of. Indeed, even those who are experts, or close to such, on the topic of Wilson’s Disease, added, which for reasons I will describe, seem to be out of place, commented on how sick patients they treat who have Wilson’s Disease are, or how I am too healthy considering my age to have Wilson’s (although, for one thing, I have treated myself, for around 9 of the last 11 years for Wilson’s Disease with zinc treatment which prevents the absorption of what it seems to me surely would be deleterious effects of normal dietary copper intake, in the gut). It is, I believe, not argued by these practitioners, hepatologists, Michael Schilsky and Thomas Schiano, that patients can have WD in ‘the eighth decade of life’, which makes it seem to me like the doctors who had originally, effectively, committed malpractice, materially, to my extreme detriment are being forgiven (as injuries to my person multiply due to others being indeed encouraged to replicate the actions of the aforementioned) for having been taught the wrong thing, or having read the wrong thing, because doctors, and indeed human society in general lacks sufficient intelligence to take these things with a grain of salt, or to think out of the box.

I think, incidentally, there would seem to be, plausibly, a rational for those actions described above, that since I am ill, society should err on the side of eliminating my genetic material, and the additional rationale that it would be to give a gift for nothing to someone to help me, and of course, simply helping those who are ill, comparing all who are ill, or admit to being ill, to criminals because mental illness is known to coincide with criminality, because they are ill and for no other reason. Possibly, if they considered that I knew I had WD back in 2005, when I first, after graduating college figured I had the disease (before the gaslighting-like, and ‘responsible’ denial of those beliefs I had, and consequent persecution-like activity, which, incidentally it will be said is related to behavioral indicators, which again, are punished as if crimes were done, and, as seems to be the common thread, for efficiency’s sake, and because people have that much cause to trust, for example, people with higher degrees and in positions of authority, incidents I described briefly, major factual aspects of in some of the previous writings I refer to in the opening of this one), they blame me for at any time since then, failing to comply with the treatment I self-prescribe, in spite of the difficulties which others surely might have ameliorated to some significant extent which have been caused both by my condition of health, which namely is what may be considered to be under-debate, and what I allege are the abuses of people who careful analysis of the situation reveal to be acting in a manner that is ultimately insane, and nothing more.

Surely, my primary practitioner at the time, Michael Romanowsky, of Windham, may have tried, as he surely did not to, refer me to a hepatologist, in 2005, who, although it may be unlikely, might have at least, instructed me that I may take the amount of zinc daily prescribed as maintenance treatment to patients who have WD. I would add that if doctors hadn’t identified me as delusional for believing I had WD, facilitating their diagnosing me with schizophrenia, I would have had less cause to avoid medical care altogether, as I did for some time, fearing bad doctors could contact the social security office, and attempt to put me on the, in my opinion, hyper-deleterious psychotropic regime I have been placed on numerous times in the past, that would have facilitated in many ways, my avoiding my more recent cessation of treating myself with zinc, something that is not at all comfortable, but which Thomas Schiano has informed me, is supposed to be less uncomfortable with prescription Galzin-type zinc. 

I might have visited the doctor with less to fear as mentioned above, and received earlier the free-copper test manifested by testing of ceruloplasmin and serum copper for which I recently, in the past six months, before I resumed taking zinc at the levels prescribed to patients with WD, had a reading of 30.3 ug/dL, above the 25 ug/dL threshold mentioned and discussed by experts on WD in scholarly papers, or on medical web-sites, which is said by Schilsky and Roberts to be “elevated above 25ug/dL in most untreated patients (normal <15 ug/dL)” (AASLD Practice Guidelines; ‘Diagnosis and Treatment of Wilson’s Disease: An Update’). That reading was the result of a serum copper reading of 102 ug/dL and a ceruloplasmin level of 23.9 mg/dL of mine from Feb. 27, 2019. On April 30, 2019 I had a ceruloplasmin reading of 20.8 ug/dL and, in my opinion unfortunately, I was dissuaded by Thomas Schiano from getting a serum copper reading at the same time to get another free copper. Dr. Schiano said something along the lines of that he doesn’t believe in the free copper calculation from serum ceruloplasmin and serum copper, however, any “ newer direct ultrafiltration techniques” of free/non-ceruloplasmin-bound copper estimations I have been denied although such has been available since 2005 (‘Wilson Disease: Clinical Manifestations, Diagnosis and Treatment’ Schilsky, 2014). So, now, I am back on zinc therapy, which in WD patients, “should reduce to between 5 and 15 μg/dL (with zinc therapy)” (Schilsky, 2014). 

I am sorry if it is a problem that I am reiterating some things I have written previously. Basically, the problem, as I see it, has to do with the fact that, clearly, there is no, because WD can manifest as late as the eighth decade of life, again, to deny that I might not have WD, when I observe that copper in foodstuffs, for one thing, creates problems for me, serious problems, and the doctors are concerned with defending an agenda that has to do with preserving the appearance of legitimacy of their profession, and their own actions which have labelled ‘unlikely’ the possibility that I do have the disease, when, simply put, there’s something bizarre and askew, and ultimately enormously cruel and inaccurate about people failing to believe me, which again, I don’t know, entirely, if they truly don’t believe what I say, or have some other agenda, or whose agenda that might be.

In a previous letter, I asked, regarding Schilsky’s and Roberts’ comments under the heading “serum copper” in the 2003 “Diagnosis and Treatment of Wilson Disease: An Update”, namely ‘The major problem with nonceruloplasmin-bound copper as a diagnostic test for WD is that it is dependent on the adequacy of the methods for measuring both serum copper and ceruloplasmin’, why they don’t mention how inaccurate the serum copper is, which might then provide a higher threshold than 25 ug/dL ‘free copper’ that would be useful for diagnosis, theoretically. Then, at least it could, or so it seems, be used to diagnose some more people, theoretically, who have WD, as having it, even if some are missed because, as is related in Schilsky and Roberts’ updated, 2008 version of the same (https://aasld.org/publications/practice-guidelines), the ceruloplasmin reading is often inaccurate in the sense of being too high (which reduces the free copper, as calculated).

Additionally, in Roberts’ and Schilsky’s AASLD Practice Guidelines for WD, there is no mention of the source of the information which establishes that the serum copper test isn’t reliable, or as it specifies, may be ‘inaccurate’. Well, I happened upon one paper that seems to share something similar. “Relationship between Serum Copper, Ceruloplasmin, and Non–Ceruloplasmin-Bound Copper in Routine Clinical Practice” by Patrick J. Twomey, Adie Viljoen, Ivan M. House, Timothy M. Reynolds, Anthony S. Wierzbicki (2005) relates “(their) data show that differences in total copper concentrations of ∼8.0 μmol/L can occur in healthy patients at a given ceruloplasmin concentration” (8.0 μmol/L = 50.8 ug/dL). My take on this, is, for one thing, it doesn’t seem clear if they mean in multiple ‘healthy’ patients, or in a single patient. Also, seemingly, they analyzed everyone who had been considered worth investigating for Wilson’s Disease, since they’re looking at the history of test results of concomitant serum copper and ceruloplasmin tests. Meaning, where they didn’t have abnormal liver enzymes, as some are reported not to have, it seems they may have had some other symptom, a complaint of pain in the area of the liver, for example, or so I would theorize. So, precisely, the people who would have been those considered more likely to have WD, if it were more common than believed to be, are considered not to have the disease, it seems, ultimately, to be only because the disease has been considered rare, traditionally. Once more, I don’t understand how it is clear that these physicians are not simply using as evidence that patients have not been diagnosed with WD, for the argument that they should not have it. There’s a distinction, ‘do they have WD?’, or as would be rather obvious, ‘haven’t they been diagnosed?’

It would seem there’s a strong argument to be made that ultimately, the elevated free copper levels signify that a person should be limiting the levels with zinc therapy. There is talk of heterozygotes: “Furthermore, ∼2% of the population who are heterozygous for P-type ATPase mutations have low copper and ceruloplasmin concentrations” (“Relationship between Serum Copper, Ceruloplasmin, and Non–Ceruloplasmin-Bound Copper in Routine Clinical Practice” 2005). I think, again, it is not all that clear that these individuals don’t have Wilson’s Disease, actually, a late onset form, and this would be a presentation earlier in life. That is, they would be other candidates for being individuals who would not be diagnosed, yet have the disease, and are missed. Especially where free copper is high, again, it would seem, this is what does the damage, eventually damages the liver, eventually damages the kidneys leading to the high copper output in urine.

So, the medical establishment’s practitioners, at large, with the exception of Dr. Ann Henkel, have been very discouraging. Dr. Henkel couldn’t confirm I had the disease, but cited a lawsuit when someone was misdiagnosed and later turned out to have WD, I am not sure to what degree it was inquired and by whom whether the said patient had WD, or whether the patient was just diagnosed as someone else. Basically, I think it’s doubly absurd. For the reasons I have cited, which, again, doctors will simply affirm their profession is reliable, in fact authorities in general may do the same. (I will also note, waxing philosophical, a fair number of people enjoy exercising control and authority over others, whether or not it’s just, or ethical). 

Secondly, they surely seem to be denying I am even feeling the symptoms I report, so again, this would have to do with the idea that heterozygotes, which, incidentally, no physician has proposed I may be, for whatever reason or people with elevated free copper readings, shouldn’t be treated with therapeutic zinc treatment, when it’s simply providing, if people are, a baseless claim, whether it’s a popular affirmation, or something supposedly coming from ‘expertise’ which is objectively, in truth, reliable, to say zinc treatment wouldn’t help for this reason or that, say because it’s psychotropics that are needed, or to affirm that zinc hasn’t helped. This all sounds a bit like people with liver disorders, if they have them, and if they have struggled from abuse, should be treated like they have no rights, and once they’re injured, no one is responsible, but they themselves. That is, again, even if it is that I am pronounced delusional for coming to the conclusion that I have WD, it’s a bit ridiculous to do that to someone who has problems, even if you simply do not understand that they are not experiencing some medical problem that leads, as I of course specified, to my experiencing symptoms concurrent with the consumption of higher levels of copper, that is of foods with higher levels of copper, generally. For that matter, of course, the zinc therapy was also deemed to not have provided materially relief, which seems to follow a pattern of physicians ‘sticking to their guns’, whether or not they be rational, and is simply hateful, even if it would be out of ignorance, because the scenario is that doctors who specialize in this disease have laid out specifications other physicians ‘would need to follow’ as would judges. Ultimately, it’s their error, and ultimately, they’re contributing to my suffering thereby, and if anyone concerned has character flaws, it would, or so it seems, be them.

One way I choose to frame the scenario is, again, before the knee-jerk reactions, as they are in my opinion, of these people eliminate the idea, that it is simply sound as an idea, to, first of all wonder if I had WD, and it’s sound to, when indications are there that these people, ultimately, are not  responsible, however confident and numerous they are, to continue to investigate following the idea that I am not indeed delusional. (It’s almost so bad, so unfortunate, and having such a profound defeating, detrimental effect on me and upon my life, that it will never cease to astound, the amount of people, and there, as I have outlined above, relatively simple explanations for why the physicians are speaking what finally, objectively, are untruths).

Similarly, my idea which I can suppose the psychiatrists would have deemed insane, as they look for facile ways, albeit ignorant and unethical to degrade the deeds of others, especially if they’re defending their own ways, is collecting the rocks I did and with cause to suspect them of being meteoritical. Now, to say this is a further delusion is further cruelty, as a number of things, including a lot of crimes I was victim to are what have prevented me from securing ultimate proof that I had a sound approach to preserving meteorites, that people may also regret I had an opportunity at all to do, meaning they would regret I was not working full-time at a menial task. I know it’s not absolutely of the essence, but since this was so traumatic for me, to lose this opportunity to prove easily, and more surely, with my best stones apparently being lost after my eviction, those I was concerned most with being stolen, by whoever it was who seemed to be invading my apartment, and poisoning me, I will share a link with a few stones, this one is a breccia of some sort (https://photos.app.goo.gl/TPgShY8rmjUBMHYP8). I have left a few photos, of what photos are left, after some somehow disappeared from my computer, which were finally lost when my camera’s memory cards disappeared along with my camera from my apartment after I was evicted in December of 2018. So, it seems I was getting hacked, in my opinion, also. A tragedy again, facilitated by the psychiatrist’s diagnosis, and another thing which might have secured the fact that I wasn’t aided by my parents, who of course, also supported the creation of such a scenario where they added to the “consensus” that gave them less reason to credit me. So, I barely tried to argue to them that I had meteorites. I just unfortunately collapsed in the end, and had many concerns which of course, in hindsight, I wish I hadn’t allowed to rule me, as I came into a state of denial about the forthcoming eviction.

Of course, I think the neck problems I experienced were the most outward sign that I was being poisoned. To help me gain certainty, I began to store all foodstuffs, since I couldn’t afford to eat out easily at all, especially at those times I paid rent, also being made more expensive by my following a vegan diet. These seemed to increase a hundred-fold my chance of being badly injured in a car collision, although previously, I had been hit by cars twice, once when I had nearly flat tires and an incredibly inexpensive bike, and another time trying to fix a bike that was sent to me from NH, by Ed and Bernice Richards, on a shoe-string budget, which led to a chain that wasn’t catching on the second-hand sprockets I had purchased for the wheelset I had bought for it. It led to my failing to save money, of course, as I think generally poorer decisions after I had stopped taking zinc sometime around 2017 had.

I had experienced some signs of gallbladder distress which were resolved by temporary cessation of the zinc. What with the discomfort of it, and the expense which would have increased substantially after I failed to find a suitable place to move to on the several month’s notice we were initially given by the new landlords who replaced the family of Tom McCarthy the long-time landlord who died of cancer shortly after I began to suspect, incidentally, I was being poisoned, I decided to forgo the zinc, thinking it a priority to consume organic food, and to avoid being poisoned, which meant spending more on food, especially initially. Incidentally, again, to be poisoned, like I feel I was, I reason, injures your brain and reduces your capacity to believe anything, especially to a person like me who is traumatized by people never believing what I say, it was very difficult. I tried to gain certainty that I was being poisoned, and sometimes I had to consume foods I didn’t believe were secure because of lack of funds, and I felt that at these times I oft experienced the unmistakable pangs and reduction of mobility in my neck.

Getting back to the rocks, the others I have mentioned before in an album I created on my facebook page entitled “Rocks Etc. Veritably Proof, IMO: My Family is a Bunch of Idiots.” There are photos of rocks balancing on tiny faces. These are located in spite of their small size, as demonstrated by the photos, perpendicular to the radius between them and the center of gravity. I believe that’s because the forces of ablation while travelling through the atmosphere created these relatively flat planes, and it’s known meteorites can have flat sides, these are just very small flat sides. And their balancing on those sides, as I referred to seems to be, again, an indication that it was while travelling through the air, spinning approximately around an axis of the center of gravity, the movement of the air parallel to the movement of the center of gravity’s movement, created planes at points perpendicular to the axis between their own locations on what would become the rock’s face, and the center of gravity.

I have also included some actlabs test results which were ignored by Randy Korotev on the (https://photos.app.goo.gl/TPgShY8rmjUBMHYP8) Google photos link.

Here was the message I sent, with my analysis

‘Thank you for the reply.

Regarding sample 2's Chemical Composition totalling only %85, what else could this mean, theoretically, aside from, that "the rest is water"???????

Also, please note, re: Sample 2 (As I am aided by your page http://meteorites.wustl.edu/lunar/howdoweknow.htm , quoted below), : 

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43 x .85 = 36.55 which pertains closely to sample 2's SiO2 concentration of %36.07 ( .85) ie. "again of %85"

"In lunar meteorites, SiO2 concentrations span the narrow range from 43% to 47%. "

Again that equation is 1 / .85 = 1.17647059 (since the total recognized elements only represent 85 %) and then (since 36.07 is the percentage reported in Sample 2) 1.17647059 x 36.07 = 42.4352942

So, theoretically, aside from whatever represents the unrepresented elements, the percentage of SiO2 deviates only very slightly from known lunar samples (43% - 47%).

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Although CaO, in sample 2, when corrected for the lower total, is still off from the %10-20 range at 3.64 x 1.17647059 = 4.28235295 CaO ...

It fits rather closely to the curve seen in the graph, and...

The CaO/Al2O3 to Fe2O3 + MgO ratio falls in line with other lunar samples as seen here: http://meteorites.wustl.edu/metcomp/alca.htm

3.64 / 2.69  = 1.35315985 (CaO/Al2O3) ; 33.33 + 9.07 = 42.4 (Fe2O3 + MgO of Sample 2)

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Ratios of FeO and MgO in this stone deviate only very slightly from the curve picture, and, indeed are close to the "average composition of pyyroxene + olivine + ilmenite from the lunar maria", deviating, again only slightly, but, perhaps notably in the direction of the ratio found in the "average ordinary chondrite"

"Thus, on a plot of concentrations of iron (FeO) plus magnesium (MgO) versus the concentration of aluminum (Al2O3 in figure), all lunar meteorites and nearly all Apollo lunar rocks plot along a line connecting the composition of plagioclase and the average composition of the three iron-bearing minerals because these are the only four major minerals in the rock."

*(Fe + Mgo = 42.4)   (Al2O3 = 2.69) 

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"As a result, the ratio of iron to manganese in lunar rocks is nearly constant at 70, regardless of whether the rocks are from the maria (high Fe and Mn) or from the highlands (low Fe and Mn)."

9.07 (Sample 2 FeO2 %) / .127 (Sample 2 MnO%) = 71.4173228 (Sample 2 FeO2/MnO ratio)

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Chromium in sample 2 represents 5850 ppm or %.585

You said: "The element chromium is in greater concentration in lunar rocks than most Earth rocks (not shown).  Chromium concentrations in mare basalts range from 0.14% to 0.44% (as Cr)."

This sample rests in line with, or coinciding with the trend of, other lunar meteorites, though having greater chromium concentrations, (*which may be relevant to the fact that also, conversely, the sample has comparably unfitting (in this case low) CaO + Al2O3.

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You said, regarding "trace elements":

"This constancy of ratios is true of any pair of incompatible trace elements and provides an excellent test of lunar origin. "

which Sample 2 corresponds with, Sm (.4 ppm in sample 2) to Th (.1 ppm in sample 2), and As (<5ppm in Sample 2) to K (.03% in sample 2)

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"Sulfide minerals are rare in lunar rocks and elements such as copper, zinc, arsenic, selenium, silver, mercury, and lead which are often found in sulfide minerals occur in very low abundances in lunar rocks."

Copper is undetected, Arsenic is undetected, Silver is undetected, lead is undetected

Zinc is 80 ppm

Neither mercury or selenium were tested for..."’

So, these rocks were lost, almost surely, the contributions of the scientists helped create a very difficult situation, for me, along with other factors. I have described my experience at the Art Institute of Chicago, in a previous letter I have sent. I was failed in a class for not coloring in a drawing of materials we were supposed to collect, e.g. trash from a site we were supposed to design for. Also, I used a board our clay site topographic models as the top of the river, and the professors, Linda Keane and Ellen Grimes demanding I make my model taller so I could render in clay the bottom of the river. It hardly seemed logical. Incidentally, my model was far more precise than any of my classmates, I had methodically constructed it from blocks of clay of uniform size, to meet the heights we, as made from a “pixelated” collection of three dimensional blocks. I argue that Hennie Reynders, Ben Nicholson, and Anders Nereim sided with authority with no reason, and in violation of the NAAB’S studio culture rules which had been recently laid out. The bottom of the river was never going to factor into the design of anything, so it hardly needed to be made. This had nigh deadly ramifications considering my parents’s behavioral tendencies, which I made the mistake of informing Linda of, which of course, led them to consider me the problem, without any doubt. It didn’t need to be so, since I had ideas that were stolen quite literally, it seemed, by Diller, Scofidio and Renfro, whose early renderings for the Eli Broad Museum in Los Angeles (https://youtu.be/FAYNyWotUmI), resembled almost exactly the novel massing of elements I had introduced after much had occurred, I had been hospitalized twice, in New Hampshire and in Chicago, and felt it might help to gain respect for what I had done, and worked on, and its novelty. Of course, the deletion of one of my photos, which I remember vividly, for I know I had one published with a figure in it somehow, from Facebook, leaving only three which less clearly show the resemblance, although maybe some will still see it, on the album ‘Architecture/Arquitectura’ (https://www.facebook.com/pedrichards/media_set?set=a.508709729477&type=3).

So, people incredibly intolerant, and having absolutely no concern, which basically, simply, is wrong, that I have liver insufficiency. I have had tremendous problems living in a drafty apartment, it’s what might have been remedied if all these other problems hadn’t deprived me of funds, as I have described, some more flagrantly illegal than others, no doubt, but all incorrect. In case anyone is interested I have created another Google photo album with a few medical documents, those documenting the low ceruloplasmin and the serum copper and ceruloplasmin giving the ‘free copper’ result I discussed (https://photos.app.goo.gl/HLKqhupicJ1PZwePA). There’s also the fibroscan where my cap (steatosis) score is 291 equating to over %67 fatty. It’s true that to get to a state nearly rated at obese, I am somewhere near 190 lbs at slightly over 5’8’ or so, and having gained a lot of that weight recently, and fairly rapidly, that might have added to the fat in my liver, but it’s also a sign of WD, according to several websites I have viewed. Again, I had huge problems living in Logan Square Chicago Il, that I found ways to remedy, temporarily, that greatly increased my quality of life, ability to think, function and work, such as by eliminating the causes of drafts, through a trial and error I partially described in past writings I tightened the closing of some doors since my windows couldn’t be done much about, which were outside my apartment in other parts of the building, and kept houseplants, and it allowed me to rest which can recuperate the liver, and reduce stress which is reportedly very bad for the liver. I could still detect when a door was left cracked by a neighbor walking her dog, very easily, and had a great mood swing, as I would become very aggravated, and often serious headaches resultantly. Again, the aforementioned would probably be debated by the types of physicians I have encountered who have allowed for me to know nothing, and have no tendency to report events faithfully.

I also want to comment on the psychological trauma. A main tenet, if not the main tenet of psychology is that abuse causes psychological trauma. This mirrors and exacerbates the physical trauma caused by the psychotropic meds I have been administered compulsorily, which I think is extremely, and has been, significant. Perhaps easily negated by saying a person hasn’t been abused, as various people may have motives, or none that we understand, not that they need them, to affirm, in my case. Now, I am in horrific shape. I recently figured just how clear more than several instances have shown that I am experiencing abdominal pain, not just from ingestion of alcoholic drinks, as few as one, a sharp pain, when a year ago I could comfortably drink many alcoholic drinks, and I’ll note, I would hydrate and consume meals always to, in many cases, successfully evade hang-overs, and I presume, that indicates serious liver damage from that, as well. Not just from eating what happen to be high-copper foods, tempeh and avocado in one case, peanut butter in another, guacamole in another, but from air quality.  I, incidentally, recently found a paper entitled “Non-Specific Abdominal Pain and Air Pollution: A Novel Association” that confirms it is indeed possible.