I hope to provide background on a situation I can’t help but petition, where seemingly having the slightest hope, parties ostensibly capable of providing assistance and relief to me, to become involved in to my relief. The scenario has degraded the quality of my life enormously for many years, in spite of what certain people will surely affirm, to the contrary, in a remarkably thorough manner. I will not repeat all of what I have written previously, but sum up some key-points related to the injuries incurred by my person due to the activities of others, hopefully clarifying where necessary, and then, I will conclude by adding some further information.

There has, it  seems, been a tremendous “ripple effect” stemming from, what I choose to focus upon, the irrational, if highly ingrained, denial that I am feeling the effects I feel which have indicated I would benefit from the treatment for Wilson’s Disease, and had a condition best described as WD. Along with that, came the affirmations in varying degrees from specific parties possessing, ostensibly, varying degrees of expertise which would theoretically correspond with the subject at hand, that I harbored a delusion. Some physicians have said they don’t think I have Wilson’s, some have affirmed that I do not have it, including while under oath (Morris Goldman of the Stone Institute at Northwestern), and some have stated that it’s ‘unlikely’ that I have WD (John Hinck at New Hampshire Hospital who also, if I recall correctly, affirmed I did have a delusion).

I have lamented that these are the experts in the field, and that psychiatrists have spoken, often, while consulting dated literature, that I couldn’t have WD because all people who have WD, as inherited, are killed by the disease by the age of 30. Thus, showing my predicament would have been still worse, some 30-40 years ago, and I would have had still less hope. There would be still less hope for anyone thinking it made sense to help me, as well, of course. I argue such problems persist in practice, and seemingly, in the literature as well, the latter which sane and responsible, even-the-slightest-bit-respectful, and professional behavior would, it seems, abate the effects of. Indeed, even those who are experts, or close to such, on the topic of Wilson’s Disease, added, which for reasons I will describe, seem to be out of place, commented on how sick patients they treat who have Wilson’s Disease are, or how I am too healthy considering my age to have Wilson’s (although, for one thing, I have treated myself, for around 9 of the last 11 years for Wilson’s Disease with zinc treatment which prevents the absorption of what it seems to me surely would be deleterious effects of normal dietary copper intake, in the gut). It is, I believe, not argued by these practitioners, hepatologists, Michael Schilsky and Thomas Schiano, that patients can have WD in ‘the eighth decade of life’, which makes it seem to me like the doctors who had originally, effectively, committed malpractice, materially, to my extreme detriment are being forgiven (as injuries to my person multiply due to others being indeed encouraged to replicate the actions of the aforementioned) for having been taught the wrong thing, or having read the wrong thing, because doctors, and indeed human society in general lacks sufficient intelligence to take these things with a grain of salt, or to think out of the box.

I think, incidentally, there would seem to be, plausibly, a rational for those actions described above, that since I am ill, society should err on the side of eliminating my genetic material, and the additional rationale that it would be to give a gift for nothing to someone to help me, and of course, simply helping those who are ill, comparing all who are ill, or admit to being ill, to criminals because mental illness is known to coincide with criminality, because they are ill and for no other reason. Possibly, if they considered that I knew I had WD back in 2005, when I first, after graduating college figured I had the disease (before the gaslighting-like, and ‘responsible’ denial of those beliefs I had, and consequent persecution-like activity, which, incidentally it will be said is related to behavioral indicators, which again, are punished as if crimes were done, and, as seems to be the common thread, for efficiency’s sake, and because people have that much cause to trust, for example, people with higher degrees and in positions of authority, incidents I described briefly, major factual aspects of in some of the previous writings I refer to in the opening of this one), they blame me for at any time since then, failing to comply with the treatment I self-prescribe, in spite of the difficulties which others surely might have ameliorated to some significant extent which have been caused both by my condition of health, which namely is what may be considered to be under-debate, and what I allege are the abuses of people who careful analysis of the situation reveal to be acting in a manner that is ultimately insane, and nothing more.

Surely, my primary practitioner at the time, Michael Romanowsky, of Windham, may have tried, as he surely did not to, refer me to a hepatologist, in 2005, who, although it may be unlikely, might have at least, instructed me that I may take the amount of zinc daily prescribed as maintenance treatment to patients who have WD. I would add that if doctors hadn’t identified me as delusional for believing I had WD, facilitating their diagnosing me with schizophrenia, I would have had less cause to avoid medical care altogether, as I did for some time, fearing bad doctors could contact the social security office, and attempt to put me on the, in my opinion, hyper-deleterious psychotropic regime I have been placed on numerous times in the past, that would have facilitated in many ways, my avoiding my more recent cessation of treating myself with zinc, something that is not at all comfortable, but which Thomas Schiano has informed me, is supposed to be less uncomfortable with prescription Galzin-type zinc. 

I might have visited the doctor with less to fear as mentioned above, and received earlier the free-copper test manifested by testing of ceruloplasmin and serum copper for which I recently, in the past six months, before I resumed taking zinc at the levels prescribed to patients with WD, had a reading of 30.3 ug/dL, above the 25 ug/dL threshold mentioned and discussed by experts on WD in scholarly papers, or on medical web-sites, which is said by Schilsky and Roberts to be “elevated above 25ug/dL in most untreated patients (normal <15 ug/dL)” (AASLD Practice Guidelines; ‘Diagnosis and Treatment of Wilson’s Disease: An Update’). That reading was the result of a serum copper reading of 102 ug/dL and a ceruloplasmin level of 23.9 mg/dL of mine from Feb. 27, 2019. On April 30, 2019 I had a ceruloplasmin reading of 20.8 ug/dL and, in my opinion unfortunately, I was dissuaded by Thomas Schiano from getting a serum copper reading at the same time to get another free copper. Dr. Schiano said something along the lines of that he doesn’t believe in the free copper calculation from serum ceruloplasmin and serum copper, however, any “ newer direct ultrafiltration techniques” of free/non-ceruloplasmin-bound copper estimations I have been denied although such has been available since 2005 (‘Wilson Disease: Clinical Manifestations, Diagnosis and Treatment’ Schilsky, 2014). So, now, I am back on zinc therapy, which in WD patients, “should reduce to between 5 and 15 μg/dL (with zinc therapy)” (Schilsky, 2014). 

I am sorry if it is a problem that I am reiterating some things I have written previously. Basically, the problem, as I see it, has to do with the fact that, clearly, there is no, because WD can manifest as late as the eighth decade of life, again, to deny that I might not have WD, when I observe that copper in foodstuffs, for one thing, creates problems for me, serious problems, and the doctors are concerned with defending an agenda that has to do with preserving the appearance of legitimacy of their profession, and their own actions which have labelled ‘unlikely’ the possibility that I do have the disease, when, simply put, there’s something bizarre and askew, and ultimately enormously cruel and inaccurate about people failing to believe me, which again, I don’t know, entirely, if they truly don’t believe what I say, or have some other agenda, or whose agenda that might be.

In a previous letter, I asked, regarding Schilsky’s and Roberts’ comments under the heading “serum copper” in the 2003 “Diagnosis and Treatment of Wilson Disease: An Update”, namely ‘The major problem with nonceruloplasmin-bound copper as a diagnostic test for WD is that it is dependent on the adequacy of the methods for measuring both serum copper and ceruloplasmin’, why they don’t mention how inaccurate the serum copper is, which might then provide a higher threshold than 25 ug/dL ‘free copper’ that would be useful for diagnosis, theoretically. Then, at least it could, or so it seems, be used to diagnose some more people, theoretically, who have WD, as having it, even if some are missed because, as is related in Schilsky and Roberts’ updated, 2008 version of the same (https://aasld.org/publications/practice-guidelines), the ceruloplasmin reading is often inaccurate in the sense of being too high (which reduces the free copper, as calculated).

Additionally, in Roberts’ and Schilsky’s AASLD Practice Guidelines for WD, there is no mention of the source of the information which establishes that the serum copper test isn’t reliable, or as it specifies, may be ‘inaccurate’. Well, I happened upon one paper that seems to share something similar. “Relationship between Serum Copper, Ceruloplasmin, and Non–Ceruloplasmin-Bound Copper in Routine Clinical Practice” by Patrick J. Twomey, Adie Viljoen, Ivan M. House, Timothy M. Reynolds, Anthony S. Wierzbicki (2005) relates “(their) data show that differences in total copper concentrations of ∼8.0 μmol/L can occur in healthy patients at a given ceruloplasmin concentration” (8.0 μmol/L = 50.8 ug/dL). My take on this, is, for one thing, it doesn’t seem clear if they mean in multiple ‘healthy’ patients, or in a single patient. Also, seemingly, they analyzed everyone who had been considered worth investigating for Wilson’s Disease, since they’re looking at the history of test results of concomitant serum copper and ceruloplasmin tests. Meaning, where they didn’t have abnormal liver enzymes, as some are reported not to have, it seems they may have had some other symptom, a complaint of pain in the area of the liver, for example, or so I would theorize. So, precisely, the people who would have been those considered more likely to have WD, if it were more common than believed to be, are considered not to have the disease, it seems, ultimately, to be only because the disease has been considered rare, traditionally. Once more, I don’t understand how it is clear that these physicians are not simply using as evidence that patients have not been diagnosed with WD, for the argument that they should not have it. There’s a distinction, ‘do they have WD?’, or as would be rather obvious, ‘haven’t they been diagnosed?’

It would seem there’s a strong argument to be made that ultimately, the elevated free copper levels signify that a person should be limiting the levels with zinc therapy. There is talk of heterozygotes: “Furthermore, ∼2% of the population who are heterozygous for P-type ATPase mutations have low copper and ceruloplasmin concentrations” (“Relationship between Serum Copper, Ceruloplasmin, and Non–Ceruloplasmin-Bound Copper in Routine Clinical Practice” 2005). I think, again, it is not all that clear that these individuals don’t have Wilson’s Disease, actually, a late onset form, and this would be a presentation earlier in life. That is, they would be other candidates for being individuals who would not be diagnosed, yet have the disease, and are missed. Especially where free copper is high, again, it would seem, this is what does the damage, eventually damages the liver, eventually damages the kidneys leading to the high copper output in urine.

So, the medical establishment’s practitioners, at large, with the exception of Dr. Ann Henkel, have been very discouraging. Dr. Henkel couldn’t confirm I had the disease, but cited a lawsuit when someone was misdiagnosed and later turned out to have WD, I am not sure to what degree it was inquired and by whom whether the said patient had WD, or whether the patient was just diagnosed as someone else. Basically, I think it’s doubly absurd. For the reasons I have cited, which, again, doctors will simply affirm their profession is reliable, in fact authorities in general may do the same. (I will also note, waxing philosophical, a fair number of people enjoy exercising control and authority over others, whether or not it’s just, or ethical). 

Secondly, they surely seem to be denying I am even feeling the symptoms I report, so again, this would have to do with the idea that heterozygotes, which, incidentally, no physician has proposed I may be, for whatever reason or people with elevated free copper readings, shouldn’t be treated with therapeutic zinc treatment, when it’s simply providing, if people are, a baseless claim, whether it’s a popular affirmation, or something supposedly coming from ‘expertise’ which is objectively, in truth, reliable, to say zinc treatment wouldn’t help for this reason or that, say because it’s psychotropics that are needed, or to affirm that zinc hasn’t helped. This all sounds a bit like people with liver disorders, if they have them, and if they have struggled from abuse, should be treated like they have no rights, and once they’re injured, no one is responsible, but they themselves. That is, again, even if it is that I am pronounced delusional for coming to the conclusion that I have WD, it’s a bit ridiculous to do that to someone who has problems, even if you simply do not understand that they are not experiencing some medical problem that leads, as I of course specified, to my experiencing symptoms concurrent with the consumption of higher levels of copper, that is of foods with higher levels of copper, generally. For that matter, of course, the zinc therapy was also deemed to not have provided materially relief, which seems to follow a pattern of physicians ‘sticking to their guns’, whether or not they be rational, and is simply hateful, even if it would be out of ignorance, because the scenario is that doctors who specialize in this disease have laid out specifications other physicians ‘would need to follow’ as would judges. Ultimately, it’s their error, and ultimately, they’re contributing to my suffering thereby, and if anyone concerned has character flaws, it would, or so it seems, be them.

One way I choose to frame the scenario is, again, before the knee-jerk reactions, as they are in my opinion, of these people eliminate the idea, that it is simply sound as an idea, to, first of all wonder if I had WD, and it’s sound to, when indications are there that these people, ultimately, are not  responsible, however confident and numerous they are, to continue to investigate following the idea that I am not indeed delusional. (It’s almost so bad, so unfortunate, and having such a profound defeating, detrimental effect on me and upon my life, that it will never cease to astound, the amount of people, and there, as I have outlined above, relatively simple explanations for why the physicians are speaking what finally, objectively, are untruths).

Similarly, my idea which I can suppose the psychiatrists would have deemed insane, as they look for facile ways, albeit ignorant and unethical to degrade the deeds of others, especially if they’re defending their own ways, is collecting the rocks I did and with cause to suspect them of being meteoritical. Now, to say this is a further delusion is further cruelty, as a number of things, including a lot of crimes I was victim to are what have prevented me from securing ultimate proof that I had a sound approach to preserving meteorites, that people may also regret I had an opportunity at all to do, meaning they would regret I was not working full-time at a menial task. I know it’s not absolutely of the essence, but since this was so traumatic for me, to lose this opportunity to prove easily, and more surely, with my best stones apparently being lost after my eviction, those I was concerned most with being stolen, by whoever it was who seemed to be invading my apartment, and poisoning me, I will share a link with a few stones, this one is a breccia of some sort (https://photos.app.goo.gl/TPgShY8rmjUBMHYP8). I have left a few photos, of what photos are left, after some somehow disappeared from my computer, which were finally lost when my camera’s memory cards disappeared along with my camera from my apartment after I was evicted in December of 2018. So, it seems I was getting hacked, in my opinion, also. A tragedy again, facilitated by the psychiatrist’s diagnosis, and another thing which might have secured the fact that I wasn’t aided by my parents, who of course, also supported the creation of such a scenario where they added to the “consensus” that gave them less reason to credit me. So, I barely tried to argue to them that I had meteorites. I just unfortunately collapsed in the end, and had many concerns which of course, in hindsight, I wish I hadn’t allowed to rule me, as I came into a state of denial about the forthcoming eviction.

Of course, I think the neck problems I experienced were the most outward sign that I was being poisoned. To help me gain certainty, I began to store all foodstuffs, since I couldn’t afford to eat out easily at all, especially at those times I paid rent, also being made more expensive by my following a vegan diet. These seemed to increase a hundred-fold my chance of being badly injured in a car collision, although previously, I had been hit by cars twice, once when I had nearly flat tires and an incredibly inexpensive bike, and another time trying to fix a bike that was sent to me from NH, by Ed and Bernice Richards, on a shoe-string budget, which led to a chain that wasn’t catching on the second-hand sprockets I had purchased for the wheelset I had bought for it. It led to my failing to save money, of course, as I think generally poorer decisions after I had stopped taking zinc sometime around 2017 had.

I had experienced some signs of gallbladder distress which were resolved by temporary cessation of the zinc. What with the discomfort of it, and the expense which would have increased substantially after I failed to find a suitable place to move to on the several month’s notice we were initially given by the new landlords who replaced the family of Tom McCarthy the long-time landlord who died of cancer shortly after I began to suspect, incidentally, I was being poisoned, I decided to forgo the zinc, thinking it a priority to consume organic food, and to avoid being poisoned, which meant spending more on food, especially initially. Incidentally, again, to be poisoned, like I feel I was, I reason, injures your brain and reduces your capacity to believe anything, especially to a person like me who is traumatized by people never believing what I say, it was very difficult. I tried to gain certainty that I was being poisoned, and sometimes I had to consume foods I didn’t believe were secure because of lack of funds, and I felt that at these times I oft experienced the unmistakable pangs and reduction of mobility in my neck.

Getting back to the rocks, the others I have mentioned before in an album I created on my facebook page entitled “Rocks Etc. Veritably Proof, IMO: My Family is a Bunch of Idiots.” There are photos of rocks balancing on tiny faces. These are located in spite of their small size, as demonstrated by the photos, perpendicular to the radius between them and the center of gravity. I believe that’s because the forces of ablation while travelling through the atmosphere created these relatively flat planes, and it’s known meteorites can have flat sides, these are just very small flat sides. And their balancing on those sides, as I referred to seems to be, again, an indication that it was while travelling through the air, spinning approximately around an axis of the center of gravity, the movement of the air parallel to the movement of the center of gravity’s movement, created planes at points perpendicular to the axis between their own locations on what would become the rock’s face, and the center of gravity.

I have also included some actlabs test results which were ignored by Randy Korotev on the (https://photos.app.goo.gl/TPgShY8rmjUBMHYP8) Google photos link.

Here was the message I sent, with my analysis

‘Thank you for the reply.

Regarding sample 2's Chemical Composition totalling only %85, what else could this mean, theoretically, aside from, that "the rest is water"???????

Also, please note, re: Sample 2 (As I am aided by your page http://meteorites.wustl.edu/lunar/howdoweknow.htm , quoted below), : 

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43 x .85 = 36.55 which pertains closely to sample 2's SiO2 concentration of %36.07 ( .85) ie. "again of %85"

"In lunar meteorites, SiO2 concentrations span the narrow range from 43% to 47%. "

Again that equation is 1 / .85 = 1.17647059 (since the total recognized elements only represent 85 %) and then (since 36.07 is the percentage reported in Sample 2) 1.17647059 x 36.07 = 42.4352942

So, theoretically, aside from whatever represents the unrepresented elements, the percentage of SiO2 deviates only very slightly from known lunar samples (43% - 47%).

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Although CaO, in sample 2, when corrected for the lower total, is still off from the %10-20 range at 3.64 x 1.17647059 = 4.28235295 CaO ...

It fits rather closely to the curve seen in the graph, and...

The CaO/Al2O3 to Fe2O3 + MgO ratio falls in line with other lunar samples as seen here: http://meteorites.wustl.edu/metcomp/alca.htm

3.64 / 2.69  = 1.35315985 (CaO/Al2O3) ; 33.33 + 9.07 = 42.4 (Fe2O3 + MgO of Sample 2)

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Ratios of FeO and MgO in this stone deviate only very slightly from the curve picture, and, indeed are close to the "average composition of pyyroxene + olivine + ilmenite from the lunar maria", deviating, again only slightly, but, perhaps notably in the direction of the ratio found in the "average ordinary chondrite"

"Thus, on a plot of concentrations of iron (FeO) plus magnesium (MgO) versus the concentration of aluminum (Al2O3 in figure), all lunar meteorites and nearly all Apollo lunar rocks plot along a line connecting the composition of plagioclase and the average composition of the three iron-bearing minerals because these are the only four major minerals in the rock."

*(Fe + Mgo = 42.4)   (Al2O3 = 2.69) 

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"As a result, the ratio of iron to manganese in lunar rocks is nearly constant at 70, regardless of whether the rocks are from the maria (high Fe and Mn) or from the highlands (low Fe and Mn)."

9.07 (Sample 2 FeO2 %) / .127 (Sample 2 MnO%) = 71.4173228 (Sample 2 FeO2/MnO ratio)

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Chromium in sample 2 represents 5850 ppm or %.585

You said: "The element chromium is in greater concentration in lunar rocks than most Earth rocks (not shown).  Chromium concentrations in mare basalts range from 0.14% to 0.44% (as Cr)."

This sample rests in line with, or coinciding with the trend of, other lunar meteorites, though having greater chromium concentrations, (*which may be relevant to the fact that also, conversely, the sample has comparably unfitting (in this case low) CaO + Al2O3.

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You said, regarding "trace elements":

"This constancy of ratios is true of any pair of incompatible trace elements and provides an excellent test of lunar origin. "

which Sample 2 corresponds with, Sm (.4 ppm in sample 2) to Th (.1 ppm in sample 2), and As (<5ppm in Sample 2) to K (.03% in sample 2)

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"Sulfide minerals are rare in lunar rocks and elements such as copper, zinc, arsenic, selenium, silver, mercury, and lead which are often found in sulfide minerals occur in very low abundances in lunar rocks."

Copper is undetected, Arsenic is undetected, Silver is undetected, lead is undetected

Zinc is 80 ppm

Neither mercury or selenium were tested for..."’

So, these rocks were lost, almost surely, the contributions of the scientists helped create a very difficult situation, for me, along with other factors. I have described my experience at the Art Institute of Chicago, in a previous letter I have sent. I was failed in a class for not coloring in a drawing of materials we were supposed to collect, e.g. trash from a site we were supposed to design for. Also, I used a board our clay site topographic models as the top of the river, and the professors, Linda Keane and Ellen Grimes demanding I make my model taller so I could render in clay the bottom of the river. It hardly seemed logical. Incidentally, my model was far more precise than any of my classmates, I had methodically constructed it from blocks of clay of uniform size, to meet the heights we, as made from a “pixelated” collection of three dimensional blocks. I argue that Hennie Reynders, Ben Nicholson, and Anders Nereim sided with authority with no reason, and in violation of the NAAB’S studio culture rules which had been recently laid out. The bottom of the river was never going to factor into the design of anything, so it hardly needed to be made. This had nigh deadly ramifications considering my parents’s behavioral tendencies, which I made the mistake of informing Linda of, which of course, led them to consider me the problem, without any doubt. It didn’t need to be so, since I had ideas that were stolen quite literally, it seemed, by Diller, Scofidio and Renfro, whose early renderings for the Eli Broad Museum in Los Angeles (https://youtu.be/FAYNyWotUmI), resembled almost exactly the novel massing of elements I had introduced after much had occurred, I had been hospitalized twice, in New Hampshire and in Chicago, and felt it might help to gain respect for what I had done, and worked on, and its novelty. Of course, the deletion of one of my photos, which I remember vividly, for I know I had one published with a figure in it somehow, from Facebook, leaving only three which less clearly show the resemblance, although maybe some will still see it, on the album ‘Architecture/Arquitectura’ (https://www.facebook.com/pedrichards/media_set?set=a.508709729477&type=3).

So, people incredibly intolerant, and having absolutely no concern, which basically, simply, is wrong, that I have liver insufficiency. I have had tremendous problems living in a drafty apartment, it’s what might have been remedied if all these other problems hadn’t deprived me of funds, as I have described, some more flagrantly illegal than others, no doubt, but all incorrect. In case anyone is interested I have created another Google photo album with a few medical documents, those documenting the low ceruloplasmin and the serum copper and ceruloplasmin giving the ‘free copper’ result I discussed (https://photos.app.goo.gl/HLKqhupicJ1PZwePA). There’s also the fibroscan where my cap (steatosis) score is 291 equating to over %67 fatty. It’s true that to get to a state nearly rated at obese, I am somewhere near 190 lbs at slightly over 5’8’ or so, and having gained a lot of that weight recently, and fairly rapidly, that might have added to the fat in my liver, but it’s also a sign of WD, according to several websites I have viewed. Again, I had huge problems living in Logan Square Chicago Il, that I found ways to remedy, temporarily, that greatly increased my quality of life, ability to think, function and work, such as by eliminating the causes of drafts, through a trial and error I partially described in past writings I tightened the closing of some doors since my windows couldn’t be done much about, which were outside my apartment in other parts of the building, and kept houseplants, and it allowed me to rest which can recuperate the liver, and reduce stress which is reportedly very bad for the liver. I could still detect when a door was left cracked by a neighbor walking her dog, very easily, and had a great mood swing, as I would become very aggravated, and often serious headaches resultantly. Again, the aforementioned would probably be debated by the types of physicians I have encountered who have allowed for me to know nothing, and have no tendency to report events faithfully.

I also want to comment on the psychological trauma. A main tenet, if not the main tenet of psychology is that abuse causes psychological trauma. This mirrors and exacerbates the physical trauma caused by the psychotropic meds I have been administered compulsorily, which I think is extremely, and has been, significant. Perhaps easily negated by saying a person hasn’t been abused, as various people may have motives, or none that we understand, not that they need them, to affirm, in my case. Now, I am in horrific shape. I recently figured just how clear more than several instances have shown that I am experiencing abdominal pain, not just from ingestion of alcoholic drinks, as few as one, a sharp pain, when a year ago I could comfortably drink many alcoholic drinks, and I’ll note, I would hydrate and consume meals always to, in many cases, successfully evade hang-overs, and I presume, that indicates serious liver damage from that, as well. Not just from eating what happen to be high-copper foods, tempeh and avocado in one case, peanut butter in another, guacamole in another, but from air quality.  I, incidentally, recently found a paper entitled “Non-Specific Abdominal Pain and Air Pollution: A Novel Association” that confirms it is indeed possible.

concerning a matter which is medical in nature, and which has injured me and left me with few options to avoid injuries being incurred, in truly ludicrous fashion. The matter, in my opinion, is not very complex, yet for whatever reasons I am being smeared and, indeed, seriously injured, by actions that have greatly expanding ramifications, in the name of the “evidence” or “proof”. Such is derived from rubrics, basically, which are confidently believed in to determine ‘a high probability,’ that one thing constitutes truth, although the application of these rubrics are, ultimately, irrelevant to the question of whether I have the disease Wilson’s Disease, and what these people think is “unlikely” essentially equates to the fact that they are smearing me, and putting me at a massive disadvantage through their oversight, when it seems clear they would know it’s a possibility that I have this disease, a possibility with which they, simply put, have little to no concern.

     First of all I have to apologize, in one of the previous notes I related that Michael Schilsky and Eva Roberts wrote, nonsensically, that the ceruloplasmin being inaccurate invalidated ‘free copper’ readings as a means of diagnosis. Rather, they write “it is dependent on the adequacy of the methods for measuring both serum copper and ceruloplasmin.” - Roberts, Schilsky ‘A Practice Guideline on Wilson’s Disease’. I don’t know what to say, so it strikes me as unfortunate that Thomas Schiano, who I went to see, making the long six-hour-plus trip to NYC, who had seemed more encouraging, and precise, than Schilsky in person, didn’t do a serum copper, along with the ceruloplasmin, which was 20.8 mg/dL, the lowest it has been, and nearing the 20 mg/dL threshold which is considered, in the diagnostic rubrics, one factor worth a ‘point’ towards establishing someone has the disease. He discouraged me from doing it, by disregarding it completely, claiming it was ‘something I ate’ making it that much higher than the 10ug/dL high range of normal which is cited by scientific papers. Ostensibly, had I another free copper result that was similar, due to my getting another serum copper along with this ceruloplasmin test I got there, it would have combatted this claim that the copper is inaccurate, creating more evidence that my free copper is really high, and that the copper result from that reading was not inaccurate. Thus, making the 30.3 ug/dL result I got in the past few months the only such result I will have before having resumed zinc therapy which will keep my condition from worsening, or, for that matter, me from being diagnosed, theoretically. I was foolish enough not to try to demand it be done along with the serum ceruloplasmin I requested because I had heard the ceruloplasmin can vary widely, and wanted to see if it might be below 20 mg/dL, which would seemingly, move toward solving these problems, which I am claiming others have caused for me, which is the topic of this paper.

    However, the fact that it’s written that the serum copper readings aren’t reliable still shouldn’t matter, as this has been insane all along, of my parents, for example, Ed and Bernice Richards, not to defend me. Of any doctors, it has been malpractice, and beyond unfair, to refuse to respect the truth that they don’t know I don’t have the disease. For it says in the literature, many things that indicate they can’t know this, for example, siblings can be diagnosed by genetic testing and have no other indications they have the disease. As common sense also shows, there has been, in the past, a developing understanding that the disease is less rare, and there is no reason to think doctors of today have come far enough to finally understand its full scope. For ignoring, when these rubrics fail to prove, in their terms, that I have the disease, the reports I have given, there is no way to inspect if they have set the bar too high, thus causing exactly what I say has happened. Much worse, to pronounce, with such as evidence, for it also is not necessarily applicable to my scenario, because typically how ill those diagnosed are, while I have had significant health-related problems that are not as serious, and nothing makes it clear, again, not that they care to describe that, or have a conversation and any respect for me, that what I am suffering, again, can not be caused by precisely what I describe, that would coincide with a cause of Wilson’s Disease, that I am delusional is absolutely insane, although, they will claim it’s so likely that it is sane, and the opposite of criminality.

Incidentally, I can’t help but wonder what Dr.s Schilsky and Roberts would say is enough of a high above the 10ug/dL level to compensate for the most egregiously errant serum copper results. (since ceruloplasmin tends to be too high, rather than too low, according to the Eurowilson site, when incorrect).

     There has always been the latent threat, as these people suggest they do, in fact, know, with certainty, that I don’t have this particular disease, of their explaining, to, for example, authorities, tiring and satiating people, or in court, how miniscule the chance is that I have Wilson’s Disease, from their positions of expertise, when, again, simply, as I have described in previous writings to these offices, it’s not merely me asserting the same thing, that I say I know, or know, I have it, which they seem to view as ‘self-diagnosis’ and some sort of threat to them, or “delusional”, as though they truly have a right to, because others have the same tendencies they do, ostensibly people of similar levels of intelligence, or with similar character traits, behaving in a similar manner. This has become such an intractable nightmare because for example, Ed and Bernice Richards, my parents were behaving in such a way as to cast doubt before they knew the result of a single test that I had Wilson’s (recently Ed claimed because ‘[they] did not have the disease’ meaning they had ceruloplasmin tests which were above 20 mg/dL, if I am not mistaken, I couldn’t therefore have it, showing how little informed they are, and how in fifteen years they have never been able to listen or understand what I am saying), and my primary practitioner, in 2005, Michael Romanowsky, was behaving similarly, and it was already hurting me, and hurting my credibility, without cause, and threatening me with what were injuries, because he would treat any problem I had as if it weren’t Wilson’s (sadly a trend that was continued as I saw other physicians, for whatever reasons, perhaps hoping to protect other physicians, by failing to state the truth). Whatever they believed they were doing, for whatever cause, and then because they can’t diagnose me with Wilson’s according to what they’ve specified they will do, or the leading doctors in the field have specified they will do, they attempt to convince me that I am delusional, and there’s absolutely no recourse for me if I am not, and no consideration, by them, of the horrors of the trends that are happening, objectively speaking, being entirely possible, based on the presumptions that are being made by them which, of course, divorce the proceedings from reality and logic.

   All of the following have hampered my succeeding given the scenario: The liver problems (which they deny exist, of course), the family that is unsupportive, physical injuries and psychological trauma caused by psychiatrists in the past, the scenario where I have some cause to see if I can get test results that indicate I have Wilsons’, which would, logic indicates, require, not taking the zinc treatment (maybe it’s been a misstep, but at times, it seemed to me this was wise, and of course, now, some doctors seem to believe the increased “free copper”, as calculated with a simple equation, up from 15ug/dL which it was, above normal, some ten years ago, to recently, 30.3ug/dL which is above the diagnostic threshold according to some medical literature, but is being disregarded by the closest Wilson’s experts geographically, Michael Schilsky, who wrote, I recently found out, in the aasld guide he co-authored, again, that it’s not appropriate for diagnosis because both serum copper and ceruloplasmin readings are inaccurate [“it is dependent on the adequacy of the methods for measuring both serum copper and ceruloplasmin.” - Roberts, Schilsky ‘A Practice Guideline on Wilson’s Disease] 

     There’s been, one concludes, a punitive aspect to the ‘science’ from the very beginning, I think involving people’s egos, as well, where they have some disorder of thought themselves, and when they have no evidence, of my having done anything serious like to enforce an agenda of authority, such as people holding degrees, which has again, prevented me the opportunity from returning to school, which required that I saw a psychiatrist before returning, with the proper zinc treatment, not that I actually surely wanted to return to that school which was bad, and badly injured me, without a due cause (I had told them I had problems with my parents when complaining about their ‘rigorous,’ in their words, coursework I described my objections to in a previous letter, so they therefore sensed I was vulnerable, and thought, without evidence that proved I was the problem, rather than others). Some people did not like me, on the one hand, this did not justify the reaction, either, as nor did the claim I couldn’t have Wilson’s derived from their frustration they saw, ostensibly, as a sign of disrespect to them, rather than my plainly reporting what was happening, if they began in error, denying it could be true without adequate evidence, and indeed, true evidence at all that it wasn’t happening.

     A little background on the punitive, seemingly, approach of my parents, who were informed mostly by their own, clearly, disavowal of me as a person capable of honesty, which they may truly believe, not that I claim personally the Wilson’s had prevented me from being a trustworthy person, rather I was a person who didn’t believe in them as authorities, didn’t take their sanity for granted, nor the sanity of others, such as physicians, nor presume they had tendencies to act in honest and intelligent manners, even where it concerned the medical field where they are supposed to have expertise. My mother would support the school who found that adjacent blog posts were a continuation of comments about a professor, whose being “afraid” only made them more secure in their plan to medicate me, and of course, entirely willing to hear anyone say anything, no matter what evidence provided by common sense and scientific papers presented, that I didn’t have Wilson’s Disease, and shouldn’t be treated for Wilson’s Disease, and respected as though to allow a chance for me to treat myself with interference and giving of traumatic experiences and having it made more difficult by the untruths being spread and represented as otherwise, if that was the only option, with zinc treatment, and recover as much as possible. My mother had no questions about what happened, as later, she would have no questions about whether I had found meteorites, which, I theorized were brought to one locale by a glacier, a phenomenon known to happen by scientists, and not debated, in Antartica, where meteorites from disparate falls are concentrated geographically by the movement of the top layers of the glaciers downwards, due to the sun’s effect. So I am credited as a mediocre person, and from there I, for thinking differently, am presumed to be very wrong, and delusional, rather than right, for my parents suggest the medication will stop me from thinking I lost some sort of fortune when the rocks I had feared would be stolen didn’t appear in the storage unit with some of the rest of my stuff, but were either taken, or discarded. Anyway, she asked how I would feel if a student treated her like I (allegedly) treated Linda Keane, again, they have a simplified view of the situation, that says I am always wrong, they’ve disregarded key-facts, and I can’t be in any manner exceptional, which would mean I have been held back in life by abuse from others, and have little concern about this, when, as described in previous letters sent to this office, I had a fair amount of success academically, which only lessened moderately in college, from where I graduated, before I first thought I had WD, that summer, the summer of 2005.

   In Chicago, I also removed these objects from my ear canals with a combination of pressurizing my ears, and using various implements. Notably, I was using something used to remove materials from whiteheads and black heads and a scab-like object was found, after a huge amount of pain, a tumor-like object was found after some intense pain which required the use of carbamide peroxide to get the pain to cease, whence I found this object on the ground, all this was also doubted by my mother by the way, who claimed, ‘it would be found on my pillow’ again, people who give me no credit, for whatever reasons, speaking about things they don’t know about, from afar, when I have a first-hand experience. Another scab-like objects, after I began using tweezers I found on the ground in a rolled-up form, rather than flat, although much like the first, suggesting that was the result of using the tweezers. These appeared to have mold on them, and I regret not finding a doctor, I didn’t have a car, and have feared physicians since I figured they might provide me trouble, according to the trend of physicians siding with one another, relying on one another, and failing to respect me, which again, I argue doesn’t have due cause. This removal of object from my ear led to my regretfully, along with the gastro-intestinal discomfort and inconvenience, especially on my low budget (so, again, say if the Wilson’s Doctors, for one, had been honest, and accurate, look how different my life might have been, it’s such a long time ago, yet I had no ability to hire a lawyer, although I feel it was a huge mistake of mine not to seek one to attempt to sue Northwestern for placing me with a roommate who had a colostomy bag, and I believe alzheimer’s, who spread feces around, precisely when they placed me in there saying I would take too much zinc again, which never was a problem again, and held me also because my either taking too much zinc, or going off zinc completely so I would recover from taking too much, theoretically more quickly, which seemed to cause me to vomit dried up blood, bringing me to the E.R. where I thought it would be established I had a liver condition, otherwise, I might not have gone to Northwestern, then.), to stop taking the zinc therapy.

This, regretful scenario is one of the most embarrassing, and led to my thinking, I propose, for example, I should not even try to sell one of the rocks, because I should not have these problems, should have money from malpractice, and losing all the best of my rocks, I was attempting to protect from theft, as I saw numerous signs my apartment was being invaded while I was away. These wires crossed on my speakers leading to them breaking when I increased the volume. This feces-like material suddenly appearing on a book, later on a wall. The neck problems I will describe later preventing me from filtering water, for example. The problems I experienced when making the poor decision, after all these terrible things were done to me, to discontinue the zinc treatment, before it would have been still more expensive not having mail as I was left searching for a suitable apartment while squatting, is the nature of this problem, as these people injure me, and then people discredit me for the state I am left after these injuries and effectively it’s as those those responsible are forgiven.

I don’t know if I would have been able to find a suitable apartment otherwise, but I felt I became too attached to even my rock collection, not wanting to sell any of those that might have been valuable (not so much as attempting to request at city-hall that I be granted the ability to sell these rocks found on public land for commercial gain), because I felt I shouldn’t have to, and it just wasn’t realistic about predicting what would happen, which, again, it seems, is I lost all the rocks, and received an eviction, and another hospitalization with extremely unfortunate consequences for my overall health and well-being, and I do think I, unfortunately, and it’s more than embarrassing to admit that I theorized removing these things from my ears would solve my problems, as I thought they cause some copper disorder that required the zinc treatment because of the presence of mold or fungi in my body. Like I said, I might have also sold a bike that I, irrationally, had to keep, because I was so upset about these things, which are the main topic of my discussion, taking so much away from me. Also, I knew from experience it would be hard to find an apartment, for I had a past experience where the poor air quality, if the apartment was drafty whatsoever, or located close enough to busy through-fares would torment me. (Incidentally, the new landlords’ men made a gigantic hole in the laundry room to the outside which almost seemed to cause the electric furnace’s wire which traveled through that, much larger than would have been necessary hole, surely exacerbated the draft, limiting, I would say the likelihood that I would come to my senses, note I am becoming more angry generally, and losing my senses somewhat, and re-initiate the zinc treatment)  Again, these experiences only proved to me more still I was a victim of malpractice. I found that the other doors and windows on the floor, to the vestibule my ground-floor apartment was next to, the laundry-room door, the door from the laundry room to the outside, could all be seen to create problems for me, such as problems working on bikes and breaking things, and doing them wrong, inability to work, if left open, and conversely, finding ways to close them more tightly, or regularly, such as putting a spring on said laundry room, or adjusting the strike the door from the laundry room held to to make it close more tightly, could help me a great deal. My condition seemed to worsen, and theoretically, would not have had I not received various injuries and insults aforementioned, and say, if the Wilson’s Disease doctors or psychiatrists had been honest about the cold, hard, facts, well, then I would have had a great case to make that I was a victim of malpractice, first threatened with psychotropics and their side effects for claiming I experienced what I did associated with high copper foods, as I claimed the zinc helped me think and maintain a steady emotional state, as well as, even, being denied zinc, and also for their encouraging, through a will to drug me, or respect other physicians, if illogically, telling my parents, who are, as it were, insanely denying I may have Wilson’s, to continue doing so, encouraging them to.  

There, again, is a basic and not extremely complex fact that they don’t know I don’t have it, whether or not they think ‘(my) intellect’ is discovering this argument to stop a ‘logical’ process of drugging me, and not that I actually experience the problems related to copper consumption, which, thinking ‘out of the box’ would lead one to conclude I do have Wilson’s, as the obvious solution is treatment for Wilson’s, zinc therapy, for which reason they simply say I am delusional, again, not caring in the least about the facts that they really don’t know. John Hinck, a psychiatrist, the first involved in treating me with compulsory psychotropic medication, said ‘nothing is certain in science’ which again, means they don’t know, where I do know I suffer from this, but that certainty of mine is attacked because they are ‘certain’ it’s unlikely, and I can’t be certain of anything apparently, in practice, which is something of a paradox. Similarly, Thomas Schiano’s nod to the same seems to be failing to warn my parents to stop me from taking the zinc, although he still claims, with the, as it were, alibi, of the rubrics and some of the written material which, still needs to be evaluated, and is not certain, it’s specified, I, simply don’t match the typical presentation of who they have been diagnosing in the past. I have added that they won’t realize ever, if that is wrong, if they simply don’t listen to people like me, or trust that my parents, for example, not being supportive, have any idea the zinc is not the best solution, the high-copper foods weren’t truly bothering me, etc.

And again, with the domino-effect of the credibility deprived of me, and the problem that can never be solved, and the tendency it creates for others to pin the blame on me, as I encounter more and more difficulties, losing my rock that resembled exactly, for example, in texture, the chassigny meteorite, the rock that when nickel, which can come from another meteorite, was taken out of the equation, matched extremely closely the grouping of lunar meteorites in a petrological/chemical manner, after I had it analyzed at Actlabs (and this email was apparently ignored by Randy Korotev, it’s insane, where I described that process, and the results step-by-step), the rock that looked very much like a known lunar on the WUSTL site, which site was modified, and a picture that resembled it had to be found on the wayback machine as it was replaced with a picture of the polished material, where mine was not polished, the rock which was a granite and had the hallmarks of a fusion crust and which my Actlabs analysis showed was granite, denied on the met-list run by Art Jones to be a meteorite, by Jason Utas, because it would be so rare (which consequently means, if it was indeed, known to be possible, it would have been that valuable), and possibly rocks that resembled the quasi-crystal, rocks that were shaped in a corkscrew fashion. Much of this was available on Google + which, is, of course, now all gone.

      I haven’t been in a state, after the horrific effects on my health of the shot I received for time-release psychotropics at St. Mary’s in Chicago, to re-post these meteorite-related claims, and the evidence supporting them, and do much at all frankly, which, incidentally, my parents think is the disease, or incorrectly, means I am not taking ‘(my) medicine’. I am not myself, at all after this “deck” shot of haldol, I was able to imbibe several drinks without a significant hangover (if I ate plenty, which I always made sure to) before now as little as one beverage can make my liver hurt, again, it’s a simple task to understand, whether or not doctors don’t care, hence my writing here, and some three drinks won’t be processed the next morning if consumed even in the early afternoon. So, my liver was hurt, and it reminds me how badly my liver was hurt back around 2010, when I was at the Stone Institute of Northwestern. It’s like I am being drowned, then the poor air quality, quite simply, becomes something to hinder my mental function greatly, and so much damage has been done simply by these people taking their flippant attitude toward my health to the extreme and being serious about how ‘necessary’ their actions are. Worst of all, before my landlord died, and the building was sold which eventually led to my eviction, along with other factors I began to encounter a problem with my neck, which seemed to cease only when I didn’t consume any liquids that had been left at my apartment. All credibility lost, people would know they could freely poison me, and I would encounter pain and lose much movement in my neck placing me in great danger as I rode my bike around the city. All these are things that are, ultimately, sinister in nature, and if they can, seemingly, get away with doing it to anyone, then they think it’s right.

So, basically, it’s not all of the essence, and I am sure plenty of people can hardly know how true it is what I say. The tendency to denigrate me and ignore this surely will rear its head, somehow or other. That I reasoned with myself, at one point, to save money from zinc, which I had taken, previously, religiously, will further destroy my credibility for some people, whether or not they believe that coincided with a decline in my mental faculties. I want to add something as well. Architectural designs I had worked on and developed as a novelty, soon after I originally published them on Facebook, seemed to manifest in Richard Scofidio’s Los Angeles Broad museum, specifically the veil. Another lost opportunity, maybe like everyone will believe its so, now that Facebook has changed their program/code so that the dates are mutable when things are posted. Incidentally, one of the images I posted of that model, now lost with a computer that disappeared, when, ostensibly, everything was to be brought, the police told me, to a storage unit, from my apartment, along with all of my media, flash drives, was not the first image I uploaded to disappear from Facebook. Basically, incidentally, I know it’s not a crime, but my folks had the ability to keep my things from being lost, my rocks, much of my artwork, my possessions, my ability to rent in Chicago, for that matter, not that they needed and discouragement to listen intently to claims I didn’t have Wilson’s Disease, but they don’t hear me explain anything from why the rocks are meteorites, and what with the malpractice, it’s an awful combination, two things that reinforce one another, that my art may have been valuable, and they like to reduce things, first to the kid who doesn’t want to work, secondly to the idea of a substance abuser, not that I expect for them to get in trouble for using the psych ward illegally to cure me of cannabis use, and don’t listen to my commentary on what scientists say, ignore images I send of rocks with the other rocks they look like, in short they only understand money, so I guess that would have explained, before I ever even realized I might treat Wilson’s with zinc, that I was wrong, in a ‘logical’ fashion, to believe I had Wilsons’, and ostensibly, why I rather, have schizophrenia, because no one else is at fault, because that’s a very facile thing to say, and they believe what they can get away with saying, or so it seems.

      That would seem to relate to failures to think abstractly, where the (material) ‘success’ of these people has to do with remembering something some professor taught them (which they attribute undue importance to, of their own fault, because many do what they do, with regard to what has been ‘established’), rather than questioning whatever that was, where it may be possible to improve it. Such as not considering that people used to think everyone who inherited Wilson’s Disease died by thirty, and extrapolating that, now we might think fewer have it who don’t pass away younger than actually do.